TheNewMe

No. I refuse to believe that things can't change. I have often tried to change certain aspects of myself or my family with no regard to their own personalities or what God is choosing to do in their lives despite me. Well, no more! This is a new start, a new beginning, a new set of eyes are upon this new chapter. It is no longer about how clean or messy the house is or how much weight I have or have not lost; rather, it is what God is seeing when I react or am proactive to what is going on around me. How can I teach my children how to behave or how to truly follow God if I am not showing the same picture? How can I get mad at them judging me, when I judge them by the same standards? No more. No more guilt. No more frustration. No more judgment. Things ARE different. VERY different than they have ever been. A new set of circumstances is upon me. Everyone is waiting to see how I react. Will I over-dramatize like usual? Probably, it is after all in my nature. But that does not mean I ...

Well, the last time I was up here, things were much different. I am now back in my home state, heavier than I ever have been, and slowly approaching age 40 (next year). This is truly my last chance to do anything about myself. I have battled depression and major life changes in the past year. I now view things a little differently. I see this next year as what could be the biggest year of my life. (1) On September 3, 2011 I will turn 40 and I want several things to happen; (2) I am trying to amp up my prayer life; (3) I am hoping to graduate with a Bachelor's degree in August of 2011; (4) I NEED to lose 150 pounds before September 3, 2011 -- it is now or never! How will I ever get this much accomplished? Well, I intend to stop all volunteer work and much of the television watching so I can effectively complete my schoolwork in a timely manner. Also, I will attempt to push myself to keep a schedule and to make God my number ONE priority and exercise my number TWO priority. I figure ...

Well, I have lost 16 pounds so far. I had a really bad emotional week, but atleast I did not gain anything. Moving forward!!!

Well, I have lost 2 more pounds. I know this is healthy so I should be very happy. Why do I still beat myself up because I could have done more? I want it to come off faster than it came to me and it doesn't work that way. Baby steps-If I continue with 2 lbs a week until my goal, that will be 84 more pounds lost. This is not closer to my goal, well it is but not as far as I want to get in that time. I will still have another 50 pounds to go from there. I need to do more exercise I think. Maybe that would help.

Well, the results are in. *Drum roll please* 10 lbs!!!!!!! So far I am loving this plan. My hope is that I continue to lose, no matter how much. If I ever plateau I tend to get devastated and want to give up, thus putting on extra pounds in the process. I am excited about the loss. My new goal is to be more active so I can feel better as well. I still need the energy to back up the weight loss. That would be my incentive.

~~~~My Nine Month Weight Loss goals~~~~ My Thanksgiving Goal – 45 lbs (250) My Christmas Goal – 25 lbs (225) My Valentines Goal – 25 lbs (200) My Easter Goal – 25 lbs (175) My End of May Goal – 25 lbs (150) Total Pounds lost between September 8 and June 8 – 145 lbs *I think this can be realistic. I know results are not typical, but I saw my mother lose more than this in the same amount of time.

Well, I am still very overly tired. I'm not sure unless it's just getting to be around that time. I get enough sleep, but I guess I am not getting enough exercise or something. If I weren't so tired I might get something done!