Sunday, November 22, 2015

November Update

Okay, so I haven't posted in a little while. I thought I would bring you up to date with how things are going for me. I am doing so-so with my eating. It is still hard for me to venture out in terms of trying new things because I don't enjoy cooking at all. I will have to say that today is the happiest with food I have been as of yet. We found a home cooking grill to eat at for lunch and I would go so far as to say it was the best plate of liver and onions I have ever had and that is saying something because as a Southerner, that is one thing that we get right. This was so fresh and made just right. Anyways, I am getting my snacking back under control better. I am now down to 175 pounds...a loss of 155 pounds since December of 2013 and a loss of 105 pounds since surgery last September. My doctor is happy and most importantly, I am happy. I still have a ways to go. My original goal weight was 145, although "normal weight" for my body frame and size is 130. I wouldn't know what to think if I got down to 130. I am finally comfortable in my body and can enjoy wearing clothes and shopping again. I was fortunate to have very kind family members who gave me almost a new wardrobe when we visited NC a couple of weeks ago. FYI...if you want a good workout, try stacking wood. I feel like I did about 1000 squats and lunges. 

Family status update:

I lost my job due to lack of state budget and restructuring of programs. I am still upset about it because I don't really want to start over but it is how it is when working with non-profits. I will start a job at KMart on Tuesday. Not my ideal job, but I will be thankful for something until I can find something more permanent. I have put my resume out there to many places and will take more civil service tests in December so hopefully it won't take too long. I wish I could say money didn't matter because I know in the long run, it doesn't but taking a 50% pay cut and going back into public customer service is a disappointment.

Lee is still being blessed every week by a congregation that loves and supports him. I am blessed to have the love of such a man.

Christopher is doing alright in school and still continues in Boy Scouts. He is getting taller by the minute and is already asking about finding a job even though he is just shy of 15.

Jamie still struggles with medical issues. We have determined that she has an imbalance of Seretonin in her stomach which was causing her stomach pains. Hopefully the new medication will help tremendously with this. The doctor does not seem to think that it has anything to do with what she is or is not eating. She asks almost every day why God gave her severe eczema. I hope one day soon He will show her how sharing her story can help others.

Geoffry, Becca, and Marcus moved back to NC a couple of weeks ago. They are happier there and I will be happy for them no matter how much I miss that baby.

Kobi and Penny are still doing okay.

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Pushing On

I took yesterday off, so today I really did not want to do anything. I was overly tired and wanted to nap all day. I did nap some, but I did make myself get up and work out. While I was catching up on missed shows, I did my strength training which included 150 sit ups and 100 squats. Then this afternoon, I took my walk. It was a little over the 3.1 miles because I did our loop which is about 3.7 miles. You know that story you heard from your parents or grandparents when you were younger about how they walked to school up hill both ways in the snow? Well EVERY direction from our house is up hill. This is no joke. It is not snowing yet, but give it time. I am not sure what I will do when it starts snowing. I guess I will have to get me some good walking boots.

The only thing I don't like is having to walk on the main roads. I know it has to be frustrating for drivers trying to get around even when walking on the side of the road. Oh well, pressing on...pressing on.

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

Restarting the Journey

I haven't had any updates lately so I haven't felt the need to write, but I may change my mind and try to do this more often. I finally have something to say. I have been hovering between 175 and 180 pounds for a while now and I think it is time for a change or restart. This past weekend, a close friend sold me her ticket to an Insane Inflatable 5K. It was pretty cool and we had a great time. I felt this need all of a sudden to get more active. I am not saying I haven't been active at all, but I haven't been super motivated. Being out of work has been a not so good thing for me. I know it is through no fault of my own and the folks at my place of employment hate to go through this as well, but we can't control what the governor does or does not do. Without the budget being passed, many are out of work or having to go find loans to survive. I am not depressed, but I am highly unmotivated...to do ANYTHING. Well I decided that I would try something new to get myself going again. I am calling it my 5 for 5 program. I am attempting to do basically a 5K (walking) for 5 days a week. In addition I will do various exercise videos and strength training 2-3 times per week. Finally, I will cut back on my food intake again. I haven't gone way overboard, but the snacking is getting to me and I have found myself "tasting" foods that I promised myself I would stay away from. It has caused me to stall so I will limit myself to 3 meals and 2-3 snacks with night-time snacking completely cut out. Since having surgery last year, I find it hard to drink my water completely so I will try to train myself to drink more throughout the day. So far, I have done my 5k twice this week already and went to a friend's house this morning to workout. If you read my blog at all, please pray for me as I struggle to restart my journey, as I try to stay motivated to stay busy with myself and house work, and as I make the decision to either try to wait out the governor or look for other job opportunities. We can't keep going like this for much longer and as much as I trust that God will always provide for us, I am having a hard time being patient as our finances and car situation dwindles.


Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Happy Surgiversary to Me!!!!



 Well, today is my 1 year surgiversary. My journey started in December of 2013. I weighed 330, my BMI was 58.5 and was in really bad shape physically. Before surgery, I lost 50 pounds and was on a variety of medications and machines. September 22, 2014 I went in for surgery. My pre-surgery weight was 280 and I measured my body. As of today: I weigh 180, my BMI is 31.9, and I have lost a total of 79.25 inches off my body. Incredible. I would like to take full credit, but I cannot. God has been my main source of strength. My awesome host of family, friends, and co-workers have been my incredible source of hope, motivation, and support. I love them all. I don't know what the future holds regarding any further loss, but I am finally comfortable in my own skin. I am still working towards my goal of 145, however I am happy to be where I am. Thanks to all who have gotten me here and praise goes to my Father in Heaven for allowing me to finish a great work.

Things to keep in mind:

1. Until you are ready to tackle your goal, you will be unable to accomplish it.

2. A support system is absolutely needed in order to make it to the finish line.

3. It is an inevitable truth that you will have set backs and obstacles that will try to bring you down and  you will beat  yourself up for it if you allow it.

4. You can achieve your goals if you continue the journey.

5. You need to love yourself before anyone but God can love you.

I still struggle with snacking issues and not going back to old habits, but each day is new and another chance to make it right. Sometimes I will allow myself something without beating myself up about it, but I know I have to not allow it to be a rule but an exception for a particular occasion. I hope that I can be of encouragement to others who are on their own journeys. Thanks for taking the time to keep up with me!

Thursday, September 17, 2015

A Review of "Good Things: Seeing Life Through the Lens of God's Favor"

I want to begin by saying that I am a reviewing an advance copy that was provided by the publisher free of charge for the purpose of review. I received it through the Blogging For Books website. You can purchase the book  HERE.
The author, Kevin Gerald is best known for his communication of practical, biblical principles that empower people to live successful Christian lives. He is the founder and Senior Pastor of Champions Centre, one of the largest congregations in the Pacific Northwest.

This book gives a fresh perspective on how to live believing that God's favor is always upon us. The point is made that grace and favor are intertwined and we are never without both. Despite hardships that come our way God's favor can give us a different perception in how it will affect our lives.

While I do differ in opinion about how easy it is to relish in God's favor, I found the material to be uplifting and encouraging in the Christian faith walk. I would recommend this book for personal reflection as well as for group study. 

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Finding the New Me - My Voice Matters

Why does what I say matter? Because it matters to me. Only you can make what you want to say significant to yourself. What it means to others falls on them in how they have been shaped by their own experiences. Everyone's voice makes a difference, whether you agree with them or not. I am shaped by my experience and by my beliefs. Because I may not agree with how you view the world or God's word does not mean that I do not love you just as much. We all have opinions and the "right" to say or express our feelings. Sometimes it is not worth saying and sometimes it is. There will NEVER be a time when our beliefs will align with everyone or when politics will simply be real and unadulterated. Why do we have to then argue about every single issue? Is it going to change anything really? This life is short. God meant for us to love and for his love to reach others through us. We are not to compare ourselves to others because we were only meant to be ourselves and not those other people who we strive to be like or who we would never choose to be like. My advice: Read God's word for yourself. Ask someone  you trust to guide to help you understand. Pray that God will give you the wisdom he so wants to give you and he will give it to you.

My experiences have been grand. Okay, nobody's life is perfect but I would say that I had a decent childhood. Our family was together and grounded in each other. We took trips and learned at home; a concept that eludes children nowadays. We had good teachers and not so good teachers, but we had great role models in our parents and our church leaders. We had pets and we had each other. Atari came out when I was about 10 and we had one, but it did not overtake our lives as children. We still played outside until the sun came down. We played with toys and let our imagination run wild. Where is that today? Even as adults, we get busy with our smart phones or fill our calendars up with so much stuff that we don't have time to spend with each other just being. Binge watching is a fad now along with reality television. When did someone else's life become more interesting than living ours? My advice: Start living life with yourself, your friends (go make some if you don't have some), and those you love. Cut electronics off for a while, even 30 minutes and just listen to the quiet sound of nothing. Enjoy what that sounds like. Take a walk and enjoy nature. Remember what it was like to be a kid and do something silly for once. Take time to do things you always wanted to do. Call someone you haven't talked to in a while. Life is short. We won't always be here. One day we will be called home to a better place. If you want to know how, just ask me and I will tell you because it does matter. What I have to say matters. I want to hear your story too, because...what you have to say matters too.

I read a blog post today and it encouraged me to write again. The writer has the following song as their mantra and I thought the words were just as encouraging so I will share it with you as well.
I Believe

"I Believe"
(feat. Michael Franti & Nahko)

I believe [4x]
No matter what you do
I believe [4x]
It will all come back to you

Stand up and find your own way
Or sit down and wait for your turn
Follow you vision blindly
Or just become the vision of someone

Remove the shackles right now
You never really fit into ‘em at all
Or keeping running with that metal
On your feet until you fall

Everything that you say
Become the things that you do
Remember what you put out there is building you
Remember everything is everything

I believe [4x]
No matter what you do
I believe [4x]
It will all come back to you

I kinda been struggling
The fire on my tongue’s been challenging
But even the wise ones be stumbling
So pick your heart up here and walk tall

Bright- eyed deliverance
Everything you say’s significant
So speak your truth, be spirited
You’re beautiful and bold, so carry one

Everything that you say
Become the things that you do
Remember what you put out there is building you
Remember everything is everything

Everything is everything, every single day
Remember this in everything you do everything you say
In everything you eat and all the people that you meet
There is life, there is light, that’s reflected back on me

I believe [4x]
No matter what you do
I believe [4x]
It will all come back to you

Turn your speakers down
And listen to the silence down below
That’s the messenger
And that’s the only one that really knows

Turn my music down
‘Cause it’s your turn now
Well it’s your turn now
Oh it’s you turn right now

Remember all that you say
It becomes all that you do
Everything that you put out there is building you up
Or it’s breaking you down to the ground
Well it’s your choice now
Yeah it’s your voice now
It’s that same sound

Everything that you say
Become the things that you do
Remember what you put out there is building you

Remember everything is everything

Thursday, August 6, 2015

Please don't call my daughter's baby a "baby doll."

I think sometimes adults forget what it was like to be a kid. The imagination should be celebrated and encouraged instead of broken down. There is a difference between healthy imagination and delusional fantasy and we should be able to tell that difference in order to create a balance for our children. My daughter is heavily into baby dolls right now and she is always searching and shopping for more. I am not encouraging her to spend money mindlessly, rather entitling her to dream about the possibility of saving for what she wants. I was tempted to get upset with her because this particular baby she wanted was a lot to spend and she kept referring to her as "real." Several of us reminded her that it was "just a baby doll" and she needed to keep that in mind that if we would buy this for her that it was a birthday gift and it was not real. Since receiving it for her birthday, she has treated her like a real baby; she even buys real baby clothes and wanted a real bassinet for her. One day one of her brothers kept goading her about how it was just a thing and not a real baby. She only replied that Nya was real and kept playing. Another day I accidentally said doll and she ran off crying and I was left wondering what I did to make that happen. Then she came to me and explained, "Mom, please stop referring to Nya as a baby doll, to me she is real." I was crushed. I had hurt her by saying her baby was not real. So I have made an effort to respond to her conversations as if Nya were real because to Jamie, she is real. She is learning how to become a mother. She has told me numerous times that she wants to adopt children when she grows up. She wants to have her own business so she can stay at home with her children. Jamie is only 10 and I cringe at the thought of her growing up so fast, so I am encouraging her to dream of her future by playing mommy to Nya-her adopted baby. So if you see Jamie with Nya, please don't call her a baby doll - just ask her how her baby is today.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

First Book Review


I am new to the blogging for books world and so far it is treating me VERY well. I enjoyed this book very much. In the beginning it was a little hard to grasp who the characters were and what roles they played, however as I continued reading the story began to unfold. At first it seems like a ordinary romance story but when delving forward, I began to notice a mystery that the heroine has to get to the bottom of to understand her family. It is a tale of love in hardships and the threat of losing love during a time of war and secrets due to Jewish heritage. All of the characters were well played and the ending left me wanting more from the story. I am not truly happy that I have to wait until 2016 for the sequel, however I know that it will be well worth the wait. Hillary Manton Lodge has proven herself to be an inspired fiction writer and I look forward to reading more from her. 

http://www.hillarymantonlodge.com/blog.html

http://waterbrookmultnomah.com/author-spotlight.php?authorid=167110


I received this book from 
Blogging for Books for this review.

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Trying new things

Well...I did it. I am finally venturing out in matter of food and I wanted to share this recipe with you. It turned out SOOOOO good! Here is the link to more post bariatric surgery recipes:
http://www.froedtert.com/bariatric-surgery/recipes


Zucchini Boat Recipe
SERVINGS: 8

INGREDIENTS
  • 4 medium zucchini
  • 1 pound ground turkey breast
  • 1/2 cup chopped onion
  • 1 egg, beaten
  • ½ lbs sliced mushrooms
  • 1 large tomato— diced
  • 3/4 cup spaghetti sauce
  • 1/4 cup seasoned whole wheat bread crumbs
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 1/4 teaspoon pepper
  • 1 cup (4 ounces) shredded low fat mozzarella cheese


DIRECTIONS
  1. Cut zucchini in half lengthwise; cut a thin slice from the bottom of each with a sharp knife to allow zucchini to sit flat.
  2. Scoop out pulp, leaving 1/4-in. shells. Set pulp aside.
  3. Place shells in an ungreased 3-qt. microwave-safe dish. Cover and microwave on high for 3 minutes or until crisp-tender; drain and set aside.
  4. In a large skillet, cook ground turkey and onion over medium heat until meat is no longer pink; drain. Remove from the heat.
  5. In a large bowl mix together zucchini pulp, beaten egg, spaghetti sauce, bread crumbs, mushrooms, tomato, salt, pepper, 1/2 cup cheese, and cooked ground turkey.
  6. Spoon about 1/4 cup mixture into each shell.
  7. Sprinkle with remaining cheese.
  8. Bake uncovered for 20 minutes at 350ยบ F or until brown.


NUTRITIONAL ANALYSIS PER SERVING (1 zucchini boat or 1/8 recipe):Total Calories: 195
Total fat: 7.5g
Saturated Fat: 3g
Sodium: 294 mg
Total carbohydrates: 16g
Dietary Fiber: 4g
Sugars: 5g
Protein: 17.5g

Thursday, July 16, 2015

The Numbers Are Moving!



Well, the numbers are slowly moving again! Today's weight = 180 pounds. Unbelievable. I don't even know how to process this.



I have lost 150 pounds to date since December 2013. BMI down from 58.5 to 31.9. Only 35 pounds to goal weight. I really never thought I would see even this amount gone. A year ago I was on track to lose 50 pounds before surgery. I wish my friends, family, and supporters knew how much they have truly helped me through this journey. I love you all. God has brought me here. He has been transforming me into the woman he created me to be and that is fabulous! What a gift to work along side my Saviour and friends to strengthen my character and body into a spiritual, physical, and emotional warrior. 74.25 inches off of my body since September of 2014. My year anniversary is coming at the end of September. I am hoping to be at goal weight in 72 days. I may make it. That is only 3.5 pounds per week on average. If I don't, I am still over the moon excited about where I am today.

Now my focus is on getting my house baby-ready in the next couple of weeks. Marcus Allan Modlin will be making his debut within that time. His due date is August 9, however he has been already giving his mother a hard time so I doubt it will be that long. We will see. Babies come when they want to come. I am still not sure if I am ready for this grandparent thing. I can't very well spoil him and then send him home - he will already live here. Oh well, ready or not...he is coming soon!

Friday, July 10, 2015

Trying on new clothes

So today I had some time to kill, so I decided to window shop. I have not tried on clothes for a very long time. I have no idea how to fit this new body. I still have a ways to go and more working out to do to refine, but I have no idea what looks good or how to shop for me. When you have children, they come first and shopping for clothes always comes to them first. That is just the way it is and no mother or father ever regrets it being that way. So as I was trying on clothes, I went to a couple of places that were not they typical buy it because it is a bargain places. I started picking up pieces that I truly liked and then proceeded to try them on. I was pleasantly surprised at the sizes I was able to get into. Some things just didn't fit right and looked funny on me so I put them back. As I went to another store, I found even more that I liked. I found jeans that looked good on me. I tried on several dresses and found one that fit me perfectly. It was the first time EVER that I put on something that made me say this was MADE FOR ME. Sadly, I didn't purchase anything because it would not have been a wise purchase for me to pick up seeing as how I have just been laid off work for a temporary time. I hope to go back and find it there waiting for me. If not, it was not meant to be, but it was definitely made for me and it fit me like a glove. This was a great experience for me not just in making me feel good, but because it was the first time in a long time I was able to shop for me by myself and take the time to invest in myself. Make no mistake, this is an important step in the journey. Whether your journey is weight related, spiritually related, change of life related, whatever your journey...take time for yourself to realize how special you are and how wonderfully you were made in your mother's womb. God created us all specifically with a purpose and individual in talent and uniqueness. Celebrate his awesome creation by celebrating yourself and all you have to offer.

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Horizontal Stripes? YES!

Well, today I did it. I wore horizontal stripes AND sleeveless! I don't really remember the last time IF EVER that I can say it happened. I was so excited because I have been looking at this dress for several months now and Friday it was on clearance for $4.00! That is my kind of deal. I couldn't pass it up. It fit me so good, in fact that I actually fit into a Medium but went for the large because it was longer. I felt so confident in it. I don't know how it looked but my husband said I looked Audrey Hepburn cute. I may even go out and cut my hair that short too this coming week. We'll see. Yes I did and it felt great!

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Strange New Day

I am starting my day off kind of strangely. I got up as usual, washed my face, brushed my teeth, took my vitamin, ate breakfast. Then...nothing. No work today. I have been temporarily laid off. There's absolutely nothing they could do about it. Until our governor signs the state budget, I will continue to be laid off. I am glad the government will be able to continue to get paid. I would hate it for "them" if they had to go without for a while. Don't get me wrong, I don't think we will go without. God has graciously always provided for us and I don't expect him to stop now. We will be taken care of, it will just be tight for a while. Anyways, I will act like I am working and take care of the behind housework and church work that I have to do. I will play with my children and teach them this summer that we can still have fun on a budget. I will spend quality time with my handsome husband. Most importantly, I will spend time with God reflecting and learning about him and myself. I will miss my co-workers, but hopefully it won't be for long.
Update on weight loss journey:

I am at a plateau right now so I will readjust and keep moving. I am happy with myself and all I have accomplished with God's help. I am thankful for all the support from family and friends. But I will push on and try to lose the remaining weight I have. I have 3 months until my yearly checkup and 43 pounds to go until my goal weight. I can do this.

Family update:

Lee and I just celebrated our 24th wedding anniversary.

Chris is leaving the boy scouts (not for him).

Jamie will start soccer soon.

Geo and Becca will welcome Marcus Allan Modlin into the world in about a month.

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Transformation Testimony



UPDATE

Wow. What a journey this has been and it is far from over. God has brought me so far since moving to Pennsylvania in November of 2013. I remember before we moved, I was in terrible shape. I remember praying the song "Revelation" by Third Day to God on an almost daily basis because I really didn't know what direction to go. So many mistakes, so many moves, going back to college in later years and then only to graduate with no prospects of a job. For over a year I wondered what would I become and how I could get out of the prison that I had made my body over the years. I was trapped. This body was taken over by high blood pressure, asthma, sleep apnea, and 185 pounds overweight. I have been carrying this for over 20 years. I went to my doctor and she told me I was not a candidate for weight loss surgery because I would just go back to my old habits and never be successful. I was depressed. 

We had not applied to any ministries because honestly, they never call you back and when they do we didn't have enough experience. Mind you, we have been serving in youth minister capacity for many years in our church and in professional capacity in several churches throughout Bible college and have been on multiple praise teams, and even served as interim pastor/wife in not only one church, but in a church plant as well. Finally, one day, Lee said he would look just one more time. So he sent out several resumes. He got a call back to Pennsylvania. We said we would take a look, so we came for a trial sermon and just felt "at home" with everyone and the area. We came back to North Carolina and waited, and then received a call back. They wanted us! We made preparations for Lee to go ahead and move into the parsonage and the children and I decided to wait until school was on a break. I then proceeded to apply for several jobs in the area just to see what would happen. I waited upon God to make the next move. Within a week I got a call back for an interview. I got the children up and we drove like mad for my interview. Within a couple of days they offered me a job. This HAD to be God's timing because there is no other way to describe it. After Thanksgiving, we moved permanently to Pennsylvania. My prayers had been heard. What I wasn't expecting was what God had planned for me once I moved here. 

In the first month, I had a severe sinus infection but I figured I would wait it out. I had a dear friend tell me to get my butt to the doctor quickly so off I went. I met the most amazing doctor that weekend. She told me that she was going to help me get better, not only with antibiotics but with other medications. I was put on blood pressure medicine, given a breathing treatment and she was able to get me an at home nebulizer. She then encouraged me to go to the weight loss center here and signed me up for a sleep study and had me go for a mammogram. It was a lot to process, but I was feeling a little better. At the time of our move, I weighed 330 pounds. How had I gotten to this point, I will never truly know. A friend who was leaving my new job, encouraged me also to go to an information session at the weight loss center. She had weight loss surgery in the year before we moved here. I checked it out. I got more information that night than I ever had before. I had known success and failure stories from friends that had had the surgery. I met someone at the meeting and we seemed to be on the same schedule so we started talking back and forth about our upcoming surgeries. I was put on a plan to lose some weight prior to surgery and was hopeful for a summer surgery. I had a couple of set backs, but I was able to lose 50 pounds prior to surgery and was scheduled for a September surgery. My friend was scheduled for her surgery the week before me so I had an example of what to expect. My doctor and his staff have been more than amazing. He is more than a doctor, he has made it his mission to connect with every patient and is so caring and treats you like a friend rather than a patient. He understands each case so deeply and cares what happens to each individual. Anyways, he proceeded with the surgery on September 22, 2014. I weighed in at 280. It was like a dream and I knew it was far from over. 

Over the next couple of months, I steadily lost weight and it was not as difficult as I thought it would be. Hair loss has been hard for me. I had to borrow clothes and buy things here and there to get me through each phase. Now it is June 11, 2015. Let me tell you how far God has brought me through my journey. I am now 187 pounds and have lost 74.25 inches off of my body since September. I have lost 143 pounds since the move and have been taken off ALL medication and machines. I have 42 pounds till my goal weight and honestly if I don't make it all the way there I am sure I will be just fine. I will continue pushing myself to do more as time goes on. I have completed a 5K, I can now walk without trouble and I feel GREAT!!! I know this isn't a big deal to most people, but it kind of is to me - I can now walk without my legs touching! It's the little things that make us happy. 

I am blessed with a job full of co-workers who have been so kind and supportive. I enjoy my work and the clients I serve. My family and friends (NC and PA) have been true rocks for me and continue to be. I love them all. Most of all, I wish to thank my dear Savior to whom I pledge my allegiance and devotion. He is the Master and knows me completely. He sustains me every day, even when I have down days. I feel like a new person. I am almost half the person I was when I moved. What a joy it is to live my life. 

Monday, June 1, 2015

A New Attitude



How do you readjust your attitude? I would like some feedback on this because I would be interested in seeing some of the techniques you use on a sometimes daily basis to change your outlook on life. For me..this time..I am choosing to focus on how God wants me to act and react. Today for example, as I was reading Romans, I came upon verses that apply to my job. Romans 12:7, "If your gift is serving others, serve them well. If you are a teacher, teach well." and Romans 12:16, "Live in harmony with each other. Don't be too proud to enjoy the company of ordinary people. And don't think you know it all!"

I haven't really considered myself a teacher because I have few clients, but in all actuality I should look at this daily to see how I can be a better teacher to them. I am also a mother and I need to look at how I can better teach them no matter what age they are. God has called me to use my abilities and if I have a negative attitude, I am of no use to Him who created me as such. God created me to serve well. He created me to teach well. He created me to be humble. So that is how I am adjusting my attitude today.

Personally, I am training myself to be the body that God created me to be. He created me in my mother's womb to be strong, to be a mighty warrior for Him, to be healthy, and to live my life for Him in service to others. If I am not striving for these, then I am of no use to Him who created me as such. So how am I accomplishing this?

  1. His Word (It lifts me up and gets me ready for battle)
  2. Prayer (It lifts others up and deepens my communication with Him)
  3. Water (Pressing myself to get the water needed for my body)
  4. Food (Eating like I should and not how I am tempted to eat-snacking IS a problem, so eliminate the problem)(Eat the foods I am supposed to eat and not looking back to the way I ate before this process)
  5. Walking (Bringing my tennis shoes with me every where I go so I have NO excuse for not walking on a break or lunch or to whatever activity my children are involved in at the time)
  6. Strength training (Because this excess flab is going nowhere unless I do it!!)
  7. Getting rid of ALL reasons for me to be lazy. Just because I have time off does not mean I have the luxury of taking time off. Rewarding myself for the small steps and giving myself a small amount of time for me is okay, but not the whole day. 


I hope you are adjusting your attitude today as well and my prayers are always with all of you.











Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Out of sorts but still doing fine

Well, I did my first 5K this past weekend. It was a mud run and lots of fun especially with our team. I plan on doing it again and would like to try more of that variety. I don't look forward to running in any but hiking like that would be great. I have reached a point in my journey where I am not exactly happy with myself and I know I shouldn't feel that way. Perhaps if I got out every day and walked like I was supposed to I would feel different. I wonder if anyone else gets to this point and when will I be happy enough with myself without beating myself up about it. I know how far I have come but I still look ahead to what I still want to accomplish. Is that wrong? And, if and when I reach that goal will it be enough for me then? Okay, moving on to updates.

Lee is still doing fine, although it seems as though I really don't get to talk with him much these days due to schedules and scouts and exhaustion.

Chris is still doing scouts and needs to get his butt in gear with his grades.

Jamie has been sick and had a bad reaction last week with her allergy shots. We are hoping it was just because her dose was upped and everything around here started blooming last week. We will try it again. I worry because she is still feeling bad every night and does not sleep because her stomach and head hurts. Pray that she will feel much better soon because I don't think her skin can take much more.

Biggest news:

Geoffry and Becca moved up here a couple of weeks ago and on Monday, May 4th, Lee had the privilege of marrying them so now we are looking forward to the birth of our grandson in August. 

Glad to have all of my family here.

Friday, April 24, 2015

Guess What Happened to Me?

I stepped on the scale this morning. It is something we do more than we should but I have been trying to break a barrier. I set my sights to get under 200 and guess what?! It finally happened!!!  199. I know it is only a pound under 200, but I will take it!!!You know why? Because EVERY little pound counts. I have lost another 4 inches as well. I am so happy because I feel so much better about myself and am healthier than I have been in a long time. For my friends who are still struggling with weight loss and similar issues. Keep on keepin on! I still struggle with the snacking issue. I always will, but I have to keep on going  because I am important, not only to myself but to my family and most importantly to God who gives me more strength and credit than I deserve.

Family Update:

Lee has lost some pounds as well and still looking good!

Chris is still getting taller and his voice deepens every week.

Jamie is still struggling with allergies and eczema and is starting to sound like a teenager even though she isn't.

Kobi and Penny are still surviving.


Biggest news:

Geoffry and Becca are moving back with us next week. I can't wait to see them and give them the support they need to bring this new baby into the world.

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Spring Update - 6 month Checkup



Well, my doctors are pleased with my progress so far. I don't know if I will ever reach my goal weight, but I am happy with my health progress thus far. I feel amazing and it is nice when people notice the change. I would like to take credit for it all, but I know that God has brought me through this journey and He will not leave my side as I continue. I give all glory to Him because He made me strong enough to handle this. I weighed today and am happy to say that the scales are moving again. I am down to 202 - down 128 pounds from when I started. I still have an addiction to snacking so I am working on not buying things like that. Even though they are not bad for me, they are bad when not used in moderation so until I can conquer such a problem they are off the menu. I have lost another 5 inches, which means a total of 64.75 inches off of my body since September. Hallelujah! AND we took a family trip on Monday and had a great time. We stopped at an overlook to take some pictures and I did a cartwheel!!!! I am not sure when the last time I did one was and I am sure it didn't look pretty, but I'll take it!!!

Family updates:

Lee is doing much better. Thanks for all the prayers for the sickness to finally leave his body.

Chris is getting taller and his voice is changing slightly. He is still involved in Boy Scouts.

Jamie is also getting taller and we are hoping that she is finally getting better health wise. 

Kobi and Penny still haven't gotten used to each other yet, but they are doing good.

Geoffry and Becca: Are looking for work and for a place to stay so pray that this will come quickly for them. Our grandson is doing fine and is still looking to make his debut in early August. 

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Happy St. Patrick's Day




Well. today marks a special occasion for me. I got into a size 14 today. This may not sound like a lot, but let me tell you where I am coming from. Before my weight loss journey, I was a size 26 without hope that I would ever see a size 14 ever again. The last time I saw a size 14 was right before I got married (24 years ago this June). Yes, they are still a little snug - but, I am wearing them today and they look good. I still have about 63 more pounds to go and a ways to go physically, but I am a very happy girl today because this means a lot. I will do my happy dance today while celebrating St. Patrick's Day. 

Family Update:

Lee: Is amazing. He hasn't been feeling well lately so pray that he will get better soon.

Chris: Is almost as tall as his dad and is doing very well.

Jamie: Is changing so much especially lately.

Kobi: Dogs really don't change that much.

Penny: I think she is going to stay small which is okay for a cat.


Geoffry and Becca: Just found out last week that they are having a boy in August. We will go down to NC for a wedding and baby shower this summer. Can't wait to see everybody. Pray that Geoffry will swiftly find a job and that they will be able to secure housing before the baby comes.

Monday, February 23, 2015



Well, Here is my update:

I am feeling so good! I remember the Frosted Flakes commercials with Tony the Tiger saying "They're GREAT!!!". That is how I feel. I am down to 218. I haven't been this weight for over 19 years. Exercise is something that I want to do now. I don't even really dread it. Zumba was fun this morning and when I get home I will do my weights and more cardio and strength training. I feel alive. God is teaching me the value of caring for myself so that I can be of value to Him and my family. 


Speaking of family:

Lee is doing well. He is helping me by being my cook and telling me how good I look, plus he started a challenge for himself today so we can do this together.

Chris is slowly turning into a man. He cut his hair this past weekend and it looks Marine-like. He looks so grown and is doing well and serving in the church.

Jamie is okay. She has been sick for a while, but I think she is just fine especially when her "attitude" comes to play. She is still sweet as ever and tries to help when she can. We sang for some nursing home residents yesterday and she played her guitar.

Kobi is still very active.

Penny is growing more and more.

Geoffry and Becca: They will get married and have a baby in August, so even though I was thinking I was too young to be a grandmother, we are eagerly awaiting this precious baby. Pray that Geoffry will quickly find a job. 

Wednesday, January 7, 2015



Wait for it.....Celebrate with me!!!

As of today, I have lost 100 pounds and 44.75 inches off my body. My journey that started when I moved to Pennsylvania in December of 2013 is over half way to goal. I am COMPLETELY off of medications and machines for blood pressure, asthma, and sleep apnea. I feel great and not looking too shabby, if I do say so myself-(it is okay because others say so too). Thanks to a lot of prayers and support from so many people, I am on the right track. Thanks to my Great and Holy Savior who is teaching me more and more each day about how great life can be. 

Family Update:

Lee has been a little on the sick side this week, but is on the mend and happy.
Chris is getting taller and handsomer by the minute.
Jamie is getting her tonsils taken out tomorrow-we're hoping it will help with her allergies.
Kobi is still a dog and sweet sometimes and annoying all at the same time.
We have a new addition since Christmas, Penny a beautiful calico kitten. She is doing fairly well in her new home.

Geoffry and Becca have now moved back to NC and are looking for work.